Anvi Tuteja, Poems, Validation

compulsive liar

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Presenting the latest poem from VALIDATION, life is lyrical irony:

–Read compulsive liar now, at Anvi’s Thoughts Caught–

Believe them, Believe me,
Believe that I used to think I could fly,
And now I’m falling down,

Yesterday was a mountain but from Today’s
vantage point it feels like a molehill

And the gravity’s too much, when you’re close enough to touch,
And I’m praying you can’t see what’s going on inside my head.

Because I see you, with me,
Because I see you, the way nobody ever saw me,
Because I see you, and every night you’re in my head,
Every time it feels like something different.
To me. But does it feel the same to you?
Or do you see me as someone out with just a vendetta to prove?
The allegations made against me were never true.
Because baby, how could I hate you, if I still love you?

And people have told me, that I’m at a crossroads.
Do I let it happen naturally and make him fall for me?
Or do I block him out of my life, and hopefully my heart?
Oh, now we’re just like the kids we really are, stumbling around in the dark.
Searching for serendipity, walking/wading through fields of anarchy.

And I’m not the type to take it lying down.
I’m not the type to make you fall so hard.
Because guys like you don’t like girls like me.
And even flight can’t help when we’re universes/worlds apart.

And it doesn’t make sense to me – why would you pretend?
Why would you lie and say the things only I know that you ever said?
But I was born of fire, and you reduced me to flame,
But you can bet that you weren’t the only one to blame.
The blame’s on me because I trusted you too many times with my sanity,
And now I’m standing here trying to take it all back for the sake of what was you and me.
The old you, The old me, And you can bet that I would have regretted it even way back then.
I would have regretted the choices I made. Regretted I didn’t say goodbye when,
You showed me who you really were, but I didn’t believe you, now I’m praying I’ll stop loving you.
I gave you one, two, three, four thousand chances, when I should have closed the door,
And gone back inside, with my dignity intact, instead of begging for more.
But that’s on me. For not seeing who you really were. A compulsive liar.
But now I’m ending the chapter. And I don’t really care that you made a mistake, that she was a trick, and the situation was too dire.
ANVI TUTEJA

That’s The Way I Loved You’s release date is Saturday, 21.12.2024.
Read more from VALIDATION at Anvi’s Thoughts Caught.

Similar poems include:
– Playing with Fire, Incandescence
– Why? Why Not?, VALIDATION
– paradox, the real me, the wandering poet
– Queen of Mean & Crumbling Utopia, Reputation

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As an Avid Blogger, I, Anvi Tuteja, am elated to present my blogsite – Anvi’s Thoughts Caught – as an amalgamation of my literary enterprise, poetic endeavours, day-to-day blogs, and other creative interests. Here is a bit about me: https://anvituteja.com/about-me/ Anvi Tuteja is a master mischief maker, secretly plotting world domination from her imaginary window seat in Gurgaon, India. She’s an aspirant philosopher, first-time author and a die-hard Potter Head. She sidelines as an Oracle of Prophesies, blogger at WordPress and her family’s self-appointed movie buff. Anvi has been reading and writing since she was three years old. For her, poetry is a coping mechanism, and in her words – one that doesn’t judge, doesn’t lie and doesn’t make you feel like you’re wrong for simply being the way you are. Anvi Tuteja is a bundle of contradictions – she reads, but binge-watches anything Marvel; she doesn’t have a social media presence, but she writes a secret diary; and she is a walking Shakespeare encyclopedia, but also a constant music streamer. In all her work, from her regular posts at her blogsite – http://www.anvituteja.com to her TEDx talk about New Emerging Technologies – Anvi Tuteja does it all with heart, impatience and love.

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