Anvi Tuteja, Poems, Validation

Beautiful Boy

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Presenting the latest poem from VALIDATION, life is lyrical irony:

–Read beautiful boy now, at Anvi’s Thoughts Caught–

You’re a very contradictory person.
That, I think, is the very essence of being human.
Of being alive.
Of living in the faux pass that freedom grants us.

The freedom to be.
To exist.

Because how dare you exist?
How dare you be that beautiful?
What must it have been like?
Growing up looking like that?
You’re a beautiful boy.

But how dare you be that beautiful?
How dare you live life looking like that?

That doesn’t seem fair, beautiful boy.
How dare you? How dare they?

Because now I’m back, I’m back here again, begging for footnotes in the story of your life?

It isn’t fair you got to grow up looking like that.
Not when I had to look like I’d been to hell and back.

And I would.
I would go to hell and back.
For you.
Only for you.

But not because you’re beautiful.
Because you’re you and I’m me.
And I could never be that beautiful.
Not today, Not tomorrow, Not ever.

And I need you to know that.
Need you to accept that and understand there isn’t anything you and I could do to change that.

And honestly?
I’m not sure I would want to.

But what’s important is that acceptance of me for me.
Or else this won’t work.

Because if one of us won’t want this, it’s all over.
Gone.

Over like the (delayed) denouement.
Fallen like the (irreplaceable) house of cards.
Floating down, down, down like the (frail) leaves of the first autumn morning.
Blown away like the (ferocious) wind that has been wronged.
Destroyed like the (ethereal) love this could have been.
ANVI TUTEJA

compulsive liar’s release date is Sunday, 15.12.2024.
Read more from VALIDATION at Anvi’s Thoughts Caught.

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– born beautifully, VALIDATION
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– Engima Part II, Incandescence
– Living Daymares, Incandescence

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As an Avid Blogger, I, Anvi Tuteja, am elated to present my blogsite – Anvi’s Thoughts Caught – as an amalgamation of my literary enterprise, poetic endeavours, day-to-day blogs, and other creative interests. Here is a bit about me: https://anvituteja.com/about-me/ Anvi Tuteja is a master mischief maker, secretly plotting world domination from her imaginary window seat in Gurgaon, India. She’s an aspirant philosopher, first-time author and a die-hard Potter Head. She sidelines as an Oracle of Prophesies, blogger at WordPress and her family’s self-appointed movie buff. Anvi has been reading and writing since she was three years old. For her, poetry is a coping mechanism, and in her words – one that doesn’t judge, doesn’t lie and doesn’t make you feel like you’re wrong for simply being the way you are. Anvi Tuteja is a bundle of contradictions – she reads, but binge-watches anything Marvel; she doesn’t have a social media presence, but she writes a secret diary; and she is a walking Shakespeare encyclopedia, but also a constant music streamer. In all her work, from her regular posts at her blogsite – http://www.anvituteja.com to her TEDx talk about New Emerging Technologies – Anvi Tuteja does it all with heart, impatience and love.

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