Day: December 12, 2024

–Read beautiful boy now, at Anvi’s Thoughts Caught–

You’re a very contradictory person.
That, I think, is the very essence of being human.
Of being alive.
Of living in the faux pass that freedom grants us.

The freedom to be.
To exist.

Because how dare you exist?
How dare you be that beautiful?
What must it have been like?
Growing up looking like that?
You’re a beautiful boy.

But how dare you be that beautiful?
How dare you live life looking like that?

That doesn’t seem fair, beautiful boy.
How dare you? How dare they?

Because now I’m back, I’m back here again, begging for footnotes in the story of your life?

It isn’t fair you got to grow up looking like that.
Not when I had to look like I’d been to hell and back.

And I would.
I would go to hell and back.
For you.
Only for you.

But not because you’re beautiful.
Because you’re you and I’m me.
And I could never be that beautiful.
Not today, Not tomorrow, Not ever.

And I need you to know that.
Need you to accept that and understand there isn’t anything you and I could do to change that.

And honestly?
I’m not sure I would want to.

But what’s important is that acceptance of me for me.
Or else this won’t work.

Because if one of us won’t want this, it’s all over.
Gone.

Over like the (delayed) denouement.
Fallen like the (irreplaceable) house of cards.
Floating down, down, down like the (frail) leaves of the first autumn morning.
Blown away like the (ferocious) wind that has been wronged.
Destroyed like the (ethereal) love this could have been.
ANVI TUTEJA

---

compulsive liar’s release date is Sunday, 15.12.2024.
Read more from VALIDATION at Anvi’s Thoughts Caught.

Similar poems include:
– born beautifully, VALIDATION
– Reaching CENNET: An Ode to Istanbul, Reputation
– Engima Part II, Incandescence
– Living Daymares, Incandescence