Anvi’s Thoughts Caught, welcomes you to the exclusive first look and cover reveal of ‘Reputation‘, a collection of never-before-seen poems. This summer, Anvi’s Thoughts Caught welcomes you to a diverse collection of poetry, the exploration of a new genre by Anvi Tuteja.
The first poem of this collection is entitled ‘Queen of Nowhere‘ and is the first of a series. This year, for three months, Anvi’s Thoughts Caught, will be celebrating what makes us unique, our diversity and our freedom to be who we want to be. ‘Queen of Nowhere‘ talks of this freedom a soul receives after being chained – in mind, body and soul.
Thank you to all of my dedicated followers. Anvi’s Thoughts Caught would not exist without each and every one of you. I thank you once again and hope you will enjoy ‘Reputation‘ as much as I will presenting it to you.
Presenting – the first from the Anvi Tuteja Archives, a poem for Mother’s Day! Dedicated to my mother, who is certainly the best in the whole universe!
My mother is as sweet as pie, I am the apple of her eye, She is as good as gold, And in all the land this must be told, She’s the one who’s always bold as brass, When it comes to manners, she will never let me give a pass, She’s the one who makes sure I stay as fit as a fiddle, With her help I can solve each and every riddle, I’m as proud as a peacock to say, This is my mother and as such forever she will stay! ANVI TUTEJA, I love you Mom!
People called me a madman, a terrorist, an anarchist – I am none of those things, My name is Daedalus of Athens and I was the greatest inventor to have ever lived,
They sought to break me, to wound me, to steal the very things I loved – I wanted none of it, You act as if fame was a great honour who deigned to bestow upon me,
You think I wanted to kill my nephew? Perdix, was merely a boy – Perdix, replace me? I made him, I made you all, I made Athens the greatest city in the history of mankind,
And what did you do? Oh, you ostracized me, you laughed at what made you great – Did you expect me to watch idly by? While you made me an example to haunt your children at night,
And then I worked for the power-blind king, Minos and his half-mad wife – But I would have none of it, I was made a symbol, a symbol of Crete’s growing prowess,
And then I achieved the feat no man had, yes, no man – I created life, My workspace, My creation, Oh, My Labyrinth, It was a gift from the god Hephaestus himself,
But this was not done by a god, but by me, mere Daedalus – And what did I get for it? I was imprisoned, tossed aside like just another tool, no escape ‘cept a window on the tallest tower,
You mocked me Minos, but I thought you knew not to underestimate me – I flew, while Icarus decided to touch the Sun, Foolish boy, never could listen, could he? But I flew, Minos, I had golden wings, those to rival Nike’s,
Sicily was a strange place no doubt, but with the usual half-piece king with a mind on gold – I rebuilt myself in the shadows, And when you came along, my three apprentices worked magic on your backward soul,
I hear you were made a judge in the underworld – Forever only a slave to the will of Hades, Not bad, but how does it feel sending others to the paradice you can never go to?
And me? Don’t you want to know what happened to me? Finish the story – I’m on Endeka now, Yes, I finally did it – what you only talked about. I became Daedalus of Athens, inventor immortal. ANVI TUTEJA
You’ve never understood, And I know you won’t ever understand, You wouldn’t do that, but I would, I was wanted by everyone in this desolate land,
But I wanted to change you, I wanted to make this work, I wanted this love to someday be true, Now in the hollows of this world, does my spirit lurk,
You can’t do this, you can’t ever care, About someone other thanyourself, You were not a diamond in the rough, just a mistake rare, But I cared, even if you dragged me through the seven hells,
It was the only thing I had, their love, Something you never gave me, They were my family and you left them to suffer, That’s why I don’t regret this decision to leave. ANVI TUTEJA
I don’t know this feeling, it’s a dragging in my soul, I don’t know how I’m gonna come out of this- complete and whole, I can’t tell if I’m still thinking, Don’t even know now, how to keep on living,
I sit here alone in the dark, On a terrifying tale, has my soul embark, And now I know, now I’m mature, Mature enough to know – it’s all part of nature,
Now I know the despairs, Of a broken heart rare, They tried to shield me from the dangers, But they just pushed me away, and now we feel like strangers,
And now I know, sometimes – Love Feels Like Loneliness, And your love has now turned to carelessness, You did what was you though was best and I thank you for that, But I haven’t heard from you in years, and I don’t know where you’re at,
I loved you both, I loved them all, but you left me behind, And thoughts and what ifs are all that do surround my mind, Your Love Feels Like Loneliness, and there’s nothing I can do, That’ll make you stay, ’cause you’re already on your way, (that’s true,)
And I know that I’ll be fine, someday, yeah, someday, But all I know is that someday, isn’t going to be, no god forbid, today, And now you’re out of this mind of mine, And no, I’m never going to be fine,
Because yes, I loved you, and I think that I still do, Yes, I now that I do, but do you? Because to me, your Love Feels Like Loneliness, But to you, did my love feels like Nothingness?
L – O – N – E – L – Y, why don’t you stop living that lie, L – O – N – E – L – Y, how do you feel? Tell me why? And I love you, but I don’t think you know – this is for you, Especially after all I’ve done, you wouldn’t know if I was true,
But this is sorry, not goodbye, because I still love you after all them lies, You did it for my own good, and I didn’t know about my wiles, And I love you, because Your Love Feels Like Loneliness, And I never realised how much, I needed your Happiness. ANVI TUTEJA
Made me believe I was living a lie for someone else, But I don’t need you to love me, because I already love myself, My flaws, my misconceptions, my defections- they make me who I am, No, I’m perfect as I am; no, not any corrections to the programme,
You left me all alone – crying and brokenhearted, But I still needed this love – while it lasted, But you never loved me for who I was, Just a wandering, meandering spirit – meant to be lost,
I’m older now, but I miss the days when I was naïve, I used to believe the perfect guy would come and find me, Even after all the hardships, the cracks in my armour, I will always remember you, the perfect charmer,
But you made me broken, made me insecure, At night your jeering voices, still come to lure, But then I learned a secret rare, Something I pass to you, with more than a dare,
All I can say at the end of the day – Love Yourself Like I Do Myself, Don’t ever compromise, don’t live for someone else, You only get one life, use it, cherish it, love it, For without your permission, no one can break your spirit,
I love myself, my flaws, my imperfections, I know my mistakes, but I still laugh like interjections, And that’s the secret of destiny, the flavour to life, If you love yourself, no one can make you feel strife,
And it’s six months later, I’ve never been better, No need to be perfect, be charming – right down to the letter, Because I Love Myself Like There’s No One Else, Because this life that I’m living, well, it’s all for myself. ANVI TUTEJA
They tell me to do more and try to be better, Perfect and Charming, right down to the letter, But I just need moment, yeah, I just need a moment, To breathe; But I’m sorry, no comment,
How do I tell them I’m done? How do I tell them they’re only stories, How do I tell them their real life isn’t my reality? That I was meant for better glories, I was not meant to sit at home and look pretty, I am strong and brave and smart and witty,
Give me a moment, a moment to breathe, I can do it, but what of the sorrows beneath? I’m scared of what they’ll do to me, I’ve seen things I wish to unsee,
Reality is abstract, different, not yours, not mine, Freaked out, Insecure, Neurotic, Emotional; yeah, I’m just FINE, I’m done fighting, I’m done living for someone else, I’m finally free, free to breathe, free to believe, that I can finally be, myself. ANVI TUTEJA
Careful how much you end up pushing me away, You never know how much I’ll end up liking it there, And my flaws; huh, like I don’t end up thinking of them every single day, But if you say it one more time, I’m done I swear,
Because Remember, Time is money and money is mine, And I won’t fight for love if you won’t meet me halfway, So tell me what you want, or get out of this mind of mine, And your excuses won’t work anymore, no matter what they say,
That’s what I love about inked words, You can’t ever change love to hate, That truly lasts forever, no changes to new hurts, Whatever’s been said has been said, now it’s too late,
Because it’s done and dusted, the chapter’s published, And you should know this isn’t a licence to hate you, But whatever was said was never meant to be public, I would have stayed forever, you know, but what to do?
But I was meant for more than this, More than a loop of your intrepid eternal unravels, I was meant to be something unseen before, no reminiscence, But now through the stages of sorrow, the miss in misery, I must travel,
Because you broke me down, ripped out the page, Like an unsung hero, that history forgot, And it’s the end of decade, but the beginning of an age, But dealing with the fact, that you just left like that; yeah, that’s a lot,
I fought all the dragons, I conquered all the beasts, But that was nothing compared to what you did to me! Now they think it’s the devil, yeah, all them priests, And maybe it is, but I don’t care as long as it’s you I never see,
Hey, listen, because I don’t have the world nor the luxury of time, Stay out of my way, and stay out of my life, Hey, by the way, How’s your heart after breaking mine? I don’t really care what you do, ’cause you caused me so much pain, war and strife,
So do what you got to do as long as it’s nothing to do with me, Because I’m the hero and you’re just another adversary, And now I’m living for me, not you or any idiot with a key, And all those insecurities and flaws you made me believe, are no longer in sanctuary. ANVI TUTEJA
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