As an Avid Blogger, I, Anvi Tuteja, am elated to present my blogsite – Anvi’s Thoughts Caught – as an amalgamation of my literary enterprise, poetic endeavours, day-to-day blogs, and other creative interests.
Here is a bit about me: https://anvituteja.com/about-me/
Anvi Tuteja is a master mischief maker, secretly plotting world domination from her imaginary window seat in Gurgaon, India. She’s an aspirant philosopher, first-time author and a die-hard Potter Head. She sidelines as an Oracle of Prophesies, blogger at WordPress and her family’s self-appointed movie buff.
Anvi has been reading and writing since she was three years old. For her, poetry is a coping mechanism, and in her words – one that doesn’t judge, doesn’t lie and doesn’t make you feel like you’re wrong for simply being the way you are.
Anvi Tuteja is a bundle of contradictions – she reads, but binge-watches anything Marvel; she doesn’t have a social media presence, but she writes a secret diary; and she is a walking Shakespeare encyclopedia, but also a constant music streamer.
In all her work, from her regular posts at her blogsite – http://www.anvituteja.com to her TEDx talk about New Emerging Technologies – Anvi Tuteja does it all with heart, impatience and love.
They say, “Come out of your head and into the real world,” It’s the place where you’ll be really seen and heard,
And I say, “Don’t you think that I’ve tryin’, Don’t you think I’ve been up all night cryin’, Don’t you think I’ve been really sighin’, Don’t you think I’ve been inside dying,”
Don’t you think, Don’t you think, but no, you couldn’t care less, To you I’m just a pretty face in a dress, But now I’m done, I must confess, Because I’m so much more than what you guessed,
And I’m so much more than how I was seen, Because I can be everything that I’ve dreamed.
Hey guys, Anvi here. Well now I’m #finally14! so yay! I’m writing this blog post to say thank you. Thank you to my parents you upgraded my WordPress plan and got me my own domain: anvituteja.com. I love you more than all the candy in the world, (and that’s a whole lot…). Thank you to all my family and friends. You made my day, and I know you’ve loved me since I was born but I’ve loved you my whole life, here’s to anvituteja.com and everyone who made me feel special. Thank you all so much.
We once walked along the same path, But now it’s shrouded in mystery and dark, I see your footprints right next to mine, But I think you knew, I’d never step out of line,
But I don’t think you knew how much you made me feel, Because even I’m just realising, all this was real, You made me feel like a little girl again, barely fifteen, And you were the only one who could make me seem heard and seen,
You made me brave, You made me believe, That I could be more than how I was perceived, You were my strength, You were my pillar, And you didn’t let it turn me into a killer,
And maybe I’m writing love letters to a shadow, But every time I close my eyes, I see us in that meadow, So all I can say is: I wish love stories were true, Because nothing, nothing means more to me that the time I spent with you.
I don’t need a man to figure out who I’m supposed to be, For I am so much more than how society defines me,
I wish with all my heart that this wasn’t the world that I lived in, I wake in the night and curse this world of war, crime and sin,
I don’t need your stereotypes to define myself, I’m sorry, but please, keep your opinions to yourself,
I fear the day this world reaches a consensus, For the wars and battles from that moment on, I fear will be endless,
Humanity has become reckless, Frozen in a state of mind, Never stopping to wonder what is ethical, moral or right,
And they said, how could a scared little girl rise above the monsters and fight? And she replied, you can never lose your demons but you can always stand for what you believe is right,
And they looked on in wonder, as she stopped all the destruction, The very one they caged, came back to be their salvation,
And she became their new hope, a light in the dark, And then that world did, on a new journey embark,
And the old traditions, mandates and standards of the past, Became a thing so obscure that they could no longer last,
That world is now a haven, of those lost, scared and different, Because she opened their minds and thus their hearts, to those incandescent,
And they tell her story, even up till this day, For she was the true saviour who showed everyone the right way,
“She was just a little girl, who had the nerve to believe, That she could be much much more than how she was perceived.” ANVI TUTEJA
If you can’t handle me at my worst, You sure as hell don’t deserve me at my best,
For I am braver than you believe, I am stronger than you perceive, And I am smarter than you preconceive, Because I am freer that how you deceived,
Of the mountain of despair, I will carve a hollow of unscare, For you can never break my spirit, Because it’s my destiny and I will live it,
For fate is not by chance but by choice, And I will rise and fight, so you can hear my voice, For I may have faced many defeats in life, Yet I have never succumbed to the sweet misery of pain, war or strife,
And I may fall, I may crash and burn, I may drown in a thousand sorrows, but I will be heard, And I will rise above and heal my pain, And I will overcome all the obstacles and come out sane,
Because I didn’t come this far, To only come this far, Because love, war and revenge, may have made history scar’d, But I know the truth, as clear as a mirror in the night, Because all the shadows can be dismissed with a flick of light,
If you spend your entire life, trying to be normal, You will never realise how amazing it is to be abnormal, It does not matter how slow you go, as long as you move, Because the seeds of doubt are so hard to remove,
What and if are two unassuming normal words, But bring them together, and you will lose more of your life than you can afford, Because you should live like there’s no tomorrow, And only then will they vanish: your fears, regrets and sorrows,
And above all else, be happy for the gift of life, For when you look at your mortality, be forever happy you are alive, Because time isn’t the main thing, It’s the only thing that doth matter, Because between life and death, you’ll never prefer the latter,
For you own the story and you derive the ending, But nowhere in life will you go with dreaming, lying or pretending, And never fall prey to the fears and whispers that come with doubt, For one day they will betray you and see you out,
For we armed with the knowledge that came with history, If you learn from the mistakes of the past, guaranteed is your victory, For life gives you no limitations, ‘cept the one you made yourself, And never mind the fears of judgement in heaven or even the hells,
Because I am more than what I once was before, And I made my own path so brave, that now they call it folklore, For I live as if I were to die tomorrow, and learn as if I were to live forever, And now they call me as if it ‘twas a curse: clever,
But I don’t care if they dare to end my story, For sunsets are there to remind me, that endings can also hold beauty, And I will never stop the wars or the rebellion, For your rules and mandates deserve nothing but insurrection,
For you are no one to tell me, who I can and cannot be, And I know I’ve said this once before, but it’s still not your destiny, Because it is in our darkest moments, that we must focus to see the light, Because we are nothing if not the things we believe to be right. ANVI TUTEJA
As I walk I do not recognise, As I walk I do not comprehend, How this little world of mine, Has changed into one of sin, war and crime,
My little bubble, an oasis of power, An impenetrable fortress, a bunker to hide away, Has now been discovered, my power drained, Oh, tears of sorrow I rained,
I watered your fertile fields with my tears, I hardened your spirit with my blood, I tended your roots with my heart and soul, I encompassed you with my being, whole,
But now you’re gone, sacrificed like all the others, They say: death is the kindest mercy, But then again I have never met a bigger liar than this: ‘they say’ But now I walk the same way,
The one we walked together, What seems like an eternity ago, Stolen moments and pretty lies, But, The spirit you left me never dies,
Chained by these very memories, The thoughts you left me, I do preserve, They’ll punish me in those hells, The very ones that destroyed yourself,
And they may have claimed your shadows, But they’ll never have your spirit, Just one of the many thoughts that I will treasure, Once they beat me out of measure. ANVI TUTEJA
Two companion pieces, Playing With Fire and A Dangerous Game, highlight the importance of rebelling and breaking stereotypes and making the world a beautiful and equal place for all in the form of a story where a girl fights against the world and vows to ‘watch, because this world will yet be mine.’ (Playing With Fire) and that ‘my fire will never again be stopped,’ (A Dangerous Game)
If the whole world says, that I’m nothing but a horrible person, Then who am I to tell them, that they don’t know it all, If the whole world says, that I’m nothing but a rude girl, Then who am I to tell them, that I’m not all that meets the eye, If the whole world says, that I’m nothing but a broken heart, Then who am I to tell them, that I had next to no part,
And If the whole world says, that I don’t have any rights, Then who am I to tell them, that I will rise and fight, Because even If the whole world says, that this is all I’ll ever be, Then who are you to tell me, for it’s not your destiny,
I can hear the rumours, I can hear the whispers, It keeps me up at night, tossing and turning, But I will rise above and leave you starstruck and awaiting, I do not fit your stereotypes, I wasn’t meant to be the norm,
But now I’ve fought your obstructions, And I broke free from your path, I’m like a bundle of contradictions, Always caught up in misconceptions, But now I’m free, I’m free to finally be me,
And you had your weapons, your cannons at the ready, But what will they do, when I fought the whole world, Your shadows leave no trace, that’s in the past, Time isn’t waiting and I’m running so fast,
And then you were begging, weeping at my feet, They say it’s in the past, But I know this won’t last, So now they race behind me, as I race for the stars,
And now I’ll say to the whole world, that you just wait and watch, Because now I’m here to tell you, I’m a bullet you just can’t dodge,
And how did you dare, to tell me who I could and couldn’t be, But I rose above the ashes, reborn from the fire, I’m just like a phoenix, solace in the flames, Because my fire will never again be stopped, And now my natural charisma will never be the same,
Fire, Fire, It’ll leave you burning, Fire, Fire, You’ll never be the same, Fire, Fire, ‘Tis a very dangerous game, Fire, Fire, You’ll burn in your hate,
So remember that is the real me, And I will run, run for all eternity, They think it’s all so easy, But they don’t know a fraction of my pain, And now in that world, all of them say, Repeating for all time, for I showed them the way:
“Playing with Fire, ‘Tis a dangerous game, And once she’s done with you, you’ll never be the same,” ANVI TUTEJA
I feel everything so deeply, I know everything, without its meaning, And you don’t know what it’s like to be me, I move swiftly, without any reasoning,
And I don’t need to make sense, to be your perfect precedent, I don’t need to be your warped idea of normal, Society’s got it all wrong, I don’t mean to represent, I don’t need to be your perfect little girl, always so formal,
I was a mistake, A beautiful enigma, I was not meant to be a standard, You cannot break my spirit, an abyss as abysmal, As vast as a river that meandered,
And on their rules and shadows, you can find my insignia, I destroyed their regular, I burnt their mandate, You can’t control my essence, my alluring charisma, I’m sorry, you’re out, past your use-by date,
Do you think you can control me? When you play with fire, burning is inevitable, I’m a wild spirit, A creature meant to be free, Try to twist my words, my soul is impenetrable,
Keep your rules, your regulations, I’d rather burn down your conglomerations, Against your rules, your legislation, I’m as varied as creation, I’ve got no obligations, I’d rather start a worldwide revolution in this backyard you call a nation,
You play with a dangerous fate, a destiny not yours, You point at me, your evils, your sins and your crimes, And yet against your weapons, your rumours, I’ll endure, And watch, because this world will yet be mine. ANVI TUTEJA
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