“How do I tell them their real life isn’t my reality?”
ANVI TUTEJA
Careful how much you end up pushing me away,
You never know how much I’ll end up liking it there,
And my flaws; huh, like I don’t end up thinking of them every single day,
But if you say it one more time, I’m done I swear,
Because Remember, Time is money and money is mine,
And I won’t fight for love if you won’t meet me halfway,
So tell me what you want, or get out of this mind of mine,
And your excuses won’t work anymore, no matter what they say,
That’s what I love about inked words,
You can’t ever change love to hate,
That truly lasts forever, no changes to new hurts,
Whatever’s been said has been said, now it’s too late,
Because it’s done and dusted, the chapter’s published,
And you should know this isn’t a licence to hate you,
But whatever was said was never meant to be public,
I would have stayed forever, you know, but what to do?
But I was meant for more than this,
More than a loop of your intrepid eternal unravels,
I was meant to be something unseen before, no reminiscence,
But now through the stages of sorrow, the miss in misery, I must travel,
Because you broke me down, ripped out the page,
Like an unsung hero, that history forgot,
And it’s the end of decade, but the beginning of an age,
But dealing with the fact, that you just left like that; yeah, that’s a lot,
I fought all the dragons, I conquered all the beasts,
But that was nothing compared to what you did to me!
Now they think it’s the devil, yeah, all them priests,
And maybe it is, but I don’t care as long as it’s you I never see,
Hey, listen, because I don’t have the world nor the luxury of time,
Stay out of my way, and stay out of my life,
Hey, by the way, How’s your heart after breaking mine?
I don’t really care what you do, ’cause you caused me so much pain, war and strife,
So do what you got to do as long as it’s nothing to do with me,
Because I’m the hero and you’re just another adversary,
And now I’m living for me, not you or any idiot with a key,
And all those insecurities and flaws you made me believe, are no longer in sanctuary.
ANVI TUTEJA
-with you till the end of the line, pal-
There are no heroes in the history books,
Because not everything is as it looks.
No one, not even your false idols are unscared,
Contrary to what popular opinion cared…
ANVI TUTEJA
Yes, I’m insecure,
And no, they really isn’t any cure,
But you never really cared about that, did you?
To you, I was just another name in the books, one-two,
I have always wondered, why I was such a hesitant dancer,
Well, now I think I finally have my answer,
I have always wondered, why I was too afraid to reach for the sky,
Well, now I think I finally know why,
It was always you, you, you,
I don’t know why I believed this was true, true, true,
You’re so casually cruel, yeah, out of sight-out of mind,
My flaws, you never forget to remind,
Like I don’t already think of them, every single day of my life,
Yeah, but unlike you, they saw me through all the pain, war and strife,
Why, Why, Why did you have to hijack this mind of mine,
Was this all just a ploy – a way to get me to cosign,
Was this all a game to you? Well, it was my life,
And I should’ve seen it coming, the knife,
Yeah, you made me hate myself,
Made me think I was living for someone else,
But now your taunting’s useless,
Yeah, It’s next to nothingness,
I finally grew up, got used to the spotlight,
Finally believed I was someone who deserved this right,
I’m better now, thank you, next,
I finally realised that – more isn’t less,
No, I’m not insecure anymore,
Finally became something even greater than folklore.
ANVI TUTEJA
-with you till the end of the line, pal-
I like to believe, the world could be anything I want it to be,
With the openness of mind and freedom of thought, Everything I see –
Could someday become a true reality…
I like to believe, the world could be anything I want it to be,
With the feeling and emotion and laughter, I can finally be me –
And all of my thoughts will last an eternity…
The world needs repairing, it’s broken and damaged,
Men have destroyed it with the wars they had ravaged,
My beautiful world, what have they done to you?
My beautiful world, why didn’t you take me too?
And now I know that I must do everything I knew I could,
Need to protect the ones just like you and me, the misunderstood,
Now I finally understand, my destiny in this world,
I can finally face the challenges that at me were hurled,
This is a new day, a new hope, a new beginning,
But all my chances of change are thinning,
I must create a new world, one sought after by many,
With smiles and laughter and resources – available plenty,
And I must be their saviour, their saviour true and immortal,
For they are stuck in peril, deep and mortal,
I will be what wasn’t there before,
I will be something greater than folklore,
And I must be the perfect enigma,
Instilling them with confidence, hope and charisma,
That is my eternal destiny that I will uphold,
I will create a new world from the ashes of the old –
Watch and behold…
ANVI TUTEJA
-with you till the end of the line, pal-
-with you till the end of the line, pal-
Thoughts Caught 