This is the continuation of Part I of ASTRONOMY, it’s fate and we’re two worlds apart. This series is all about what introvertism means, how it feels when your best friend is on another planet, and how hard it hits to know that you have insecurity.
Astronomy, is going to be published in multiple parts, and I’m pleased to continue Part I:
Presenting 1.4, could i despise you?:
Have you ever met one of those people,
The ones towards you gravitate, seemingly by principle?
I’d say I’d used to be one, but by now I think you know me,
Enough to know that’s something I could never be.
Could I despise you?
If I never even knew you?
Because I’ve seen you,
Too many times for my accusations to be branded untrue.
But if you don’t even see me,
Do I even matter, because I’m used to it?
Could anyone ever be used to feeling used?
Needed for not the sake of being needed,
Wanted for only a moment, where YOU can take a laugh.
Because am I a device through which you expel your negativity?
A means for you to cleanse your soul,
Before you take what we made together, and call it your own.
And we’ve all seen what happens when I take your side,
We crash and burn, and I ruin my life and feel dead inside.
“But where is the flow going?” is what I need to know.
Need to Know.
Desperately.
‘Cause where is this going?
‘Cause where are we going?
My identity, my existence is “Repetitive,”
And I’m afraid, someday I’ll believe it.
anvi tuteja
Thoughts Caught 