permanent superiority – ASTRONOMY 1.1

This is the beginning Part I of ASTRONOMY, it’s fate and we’re two worlds apart. This series is all about what introvertism means, how it feels when your best friend is on another planet, and how hard it hits to know that you have insecurity. 

Astronomy, is going to be published in multiple parts, and I’m pleased to begin Part I:

Presenting 1.1, permanent superiority:

this crushing sense of inferiority,
all bow down to your permanent superiority,
i say i’m dead inside,
but was i ever really alive?

life is supposed to be an amalgamation of moments,
but mine is just the same period rejection playing over and over,

i look for you,
to find you,
but when i do,
i can’t say anything because neither do you.

and i wonder, was any of it ever real?
i spent my entire life trying to deduce the way i made you feel,

and now the infallible, irrefutable conclusion is here,
because before i met you i never had anything to fear,

now i care about you in ways that i didn’t know i could,
because this faithless heart feels illegal love, like the kind it knows it shouldn’t,

i think, right now, my only question is did you care?
and on second thought, don’t tell me, because i could never handle that scare.

i’m standing and i say, “is there anyone who doesn’t know me?”
you stand up and say, “i don’t know you,” and inside, i feel insincerity,

I needed you like Air,
But I guess you could Breathe just fine, without me there,

this monument of a heart
that’s now barely beating in broken parts,

if i knew it was time for me to leave,
why would i ever this faithless love grieve?
anvi tuteja