Five companion pieces, Lonely, Remember, Right Here, Preserve and Soldier, highlight a listless tale of sorrow as they quantify a hard truth of life: the fact that not all stories end in happiness.
Month: March 2021
Soldier
Fifth and Last in the Forevermore Series – Soldier:
Don’t say you’re sorry; I understand -,
Don’t say it was only you; I understand -,
You don’t need to keep fighting, like a storm in the sky,
Now I’m ready; Stand down Soldier because This is Goodbye,
I miss your fiery winds, I miss your brazen smile,
I miss the way I was so enraptured – I was a puppet to your wiles,
But now I realise I’ve been so selfish,
Leaving you tied to me, struggling and helpless,
And I know you will say – “That’s not true-“,
But we both know, the hero has always been you,
You were a creature, an enigma born to be free,
Dancing in the air, Leaping in the trees,
Now I’m ready, ready to let you go,
I’ll always follow behind, no matter how slow,
You will live your destiny, and change the world,
And I will always remember, the endless space you unfurled,
But now these memories will be enough – till the day I die,
So Stand down, Soldier – This is Goodbye…
Now you don’t need to stay chained anymore,
Because I will always remember – Our love was Forevermore.
ANVI TUTEJA
-with you till the end of the line, pal-
Preserve
Fourth in the Forevermore Series – Preserve:
They say, “You will always be judged on your own merits,”
When someone else fails, not yours is the credit,
But that’s just ridiculous when the judging’s relative,
When I know I was the true winner, how can I be anything but negative?
They say I got what I deserved,
Only that which can be, must be preserved,
I’m sorry I couldn’t hold on,
But my ideas are my downfall – from dusk to dawn,
Now they’re taking revenge,
I’m sorry our love, I could not avenge,
And the others tell me to leave, and go whence I came,
But how do I tell them, nothing ever stays the same,
I came in here – bold as brass,
I scoffed and jeered at them to let me pass,
But now it’s come to bite me back, like a knife in the back,
And now they tell me, my last is on the track,
I’m sorry, I couldn’t preserve my sanity,
I was blinded by misconceptions, beauty and vanity,
So I’m sorry, because I cannot fight back much longer,
But I couldn’t hold on, because my fears were made to be conquered.
ANVI TUTEJA
-with you till the end of the line, pal-
Enigma Part I
They look up at me and expect an enigma,
But how am I to tell them, I’ve got no natural charisma,
They look up to me and believe the rumours,
But how am I to tell them, I’m just a regular human,
They look up at me and see a saviour immortal,
But how am I to tell them, I’m only a mere mortal,
They look up at me and expect tales of my glories,
But how am I to tell them, that all of my exploits are only stories,
They look up at me and see man vs myth,
But how am I to tell them, I have nothing to regale them with.
ANVI TUTEJA
-with you till the end of the line, pal-
Right Here
Third in the Forevermore series – Right Here.
If I didn’t know better,
I’d say you were listening to me now,
If I didn’t know better,
I’d say you were still around,
But you didn’t stay dead,
You’re still alive, alive in my head,
If I had known, I’d have kept every hastily scrawled sheet,
Because every scrap of you had been taken from me,
I’d say you were right here,
Before I realized you were just a mortal mere,
Now I know better, heard the clacks in the ground,
But I still feel you, in the sky, all around.
ANVI TUTEJA
-with you till the end of the line, pal-
Despair
To rid their world of a new kind of dark,
Three brave heroes did on a new journey embark,
The eldest loved knowledge, and he saved them from enmity,
For as he said, “There is no love lost when the world is in hostility,”
The youngest loved magic, so he saved them from illusions,
He used his power to draw the curtain, and rid them of their delusions,
The second eldest loved challenges, and she saved them from despair,
She fought all enemies, real and elusive, for she was a diamond in the rough, a beauty too rare,
And they were forever known as the mage’s counsel, the royal trinity,
However, their enemies did their rapport break, and they despaired in their unity,
She, the second eldest, one of beauty and power, was the first to leave,
She went off to vanquish her demons and did their intimate bond cleave,
Then urged by jealousy and wisdom, the eldest did take flight,
Leaving to rule over their kingdom as the lone king of plight,
Then left was the youngest, sorcerer supreme, all alone in a strange land,
As the newest of mind and open of thought, he alone could take a stand,
But what was he to do, simply a child in a chess game too hard to comprehend,
And he too, began to despair, and the darkness, delighted, flooded in, and thus their greatest heroes came to an end,
And many, many years later, when the three were together almost thrice a score aged,
When the land was ravaged, The heroes scattered and the fires raged,
Reunited were they once more, by just a misconception too grave,
And on that fateful day, sparks between them did fly: for they were meant to rule or raze,
Revelling in their unison, they once again were one,
But for the dangers that lurked beyond the deep, This ominous battle they had not yet won,
The eldest vanquished their fears, for he was gifted in terms of knowledge and sphere,
He fought the demons and left them but a speck in the universe, so mere,
The youngest saw beyond the Deep, and vanquished their visions,
They were finally in unison, and he created their realisations,
The second eldest solved riddles, and cured their complications,
She destroyed their power, burned down their conglomerations,
And thus the darkness, despairing, abandoned and took flight,
It was gone once again as the greatest heroes vanquished it into pure night.
ANVI TUTEJA
-with you till the end of the line, pal-
Black and White
If the world was black and white,
I wouldn’t have to worry about wrong or right,
If the world was all in grayscale,
I wouldn’t have to worry about responding to hate mail,
If the world came with categories and tags,
I wouldn’t have to worry about an unnoticed red flag,
If the world was free of messy quarrels,
I wouldn’t have to worry about anyone’s loose morals,
But if the world wasn’t like a storm: lightning and thunder,
I would never get to imagine, to wonder,
But if the world wasn’t full of color,
I would never get to imagine my life fuller,
But if the world wasn’t divided into below, land and above,
I would never really know what it truly is to love,
But if the world wasn’t so dynamic and ever-changing,
I would never see the wonders people were exchanging,
And if I never had any goals, any worldly position,
I would never know everything I was missing,
And if I didn’t look yearning up at the sky, from down here on the ground,
All this wonder, beauty and enigma would never have been found.
ANVI TUTEJA
-with you till the end of the line, pal-
Don’t You Think
They say, “Come out of your head and into the real world,”
It’s the place where you’ll be really seen and heard,
And I say, “Don’t you think that I’ve tryin’,
Don’t you think I’ve been up all night cryin’,
Don’t you think I’ve been really sighin’,
Don’t you think I’ve been inside dying,”
Don’t you think, Don’t you think, but no, you couldn’t care less,
To you I’m just a pretty face in a dress,
But now I’m done, I must confess,
Because I’m so much more than what you guessed,
And I’m so much more than how I was seen,
Because I can be everything that I’ve dreamed.
ANVI TUTEJA
-with you till the end of the line, pal-
Living Daymares
My beautiful world,
Oh, how you have changed,
My beautiful world,
Oh, the variations that you have made,
The only one I trusted,
But now my faith’s been rusted,
They say, that the past is the past,
Give me one chance, and here I will last,
In these shadows, the memories that we shared,
Come to haunt me, like a living daymare,
What’s done is done,
You’re never coming back now.
ANVI TUTEJA
-with you till the end of the line, pal-
Thank You!
Hey guys, Anvi here. Well now I’m #finally14! so yay! I’m writing this blog post to say thank you. Thank you to my parents you upgraded my WordPress plan and got me my own domain: anvituteja.com. I love you more than all the candy in the world, (and that’s a whole lot…). Thank you to all my family and friends. You made my day, and I know you’ve loved me since I was born but I’ve loved you my whole life, here’s to anvituteja.com and everyone who made me feel special. Thank you all so much.
Thoughts Caught 